I don’t know if I’ll ever be back 100%.  But sometimes, I wish I had a place to vent all the shit I feel, without my real name being associated with it.  

I just reread the “I’m pregnant” post I made 5 years ago.  Holy cow.  I have a kid now.  She’s 4 and a half.  Reading about my pregnancy is pretty surreal. 

 

Thank you Xanga.

I’m inviting a friend over Friday who claims she is a spiritual medium.  We’re going to do some funky spirit-stuff.  I have friends on both sides of this.  Some who will say, “oh yeah!  Right on.” And others who will say, “that’s bullS*”  

 

Either way, it should be a fun night.

 

 

I’ve been using a few good job sites, but I feel like there’s NOTHING out there right now.  

 

I applied for a great position at the US Forest service (as a technical writer). We’ll see if I get a call back on that.  I know I’m a good fit and it would allow us to stay in Fort Collins.

 

I’m so ready to start work.  I haven’t had a 9 to 5 job in years.  I know it’s really weird, but I miss it.  

I’m a huge George R.R. Martin fan.  His book series, “A Song of Ice and Fire” has been adapted for HBO (well the first book anyway) and the new series begins next week.  

 

Needless to say, I am absolutely thrilled.  Here’s a short trailer called “Poison.”

 

http://youtu.be/8T84d-lRNLs

 

Will write more about this next week for sure.  

Posting on my Xanga?  Facebook has made me so lazy.  

I went back and looked at my old Xanga posts the other day and realized I have a journal of my life, right in front of me, with wonderful details.

Now?  I just have a year or so that comprises a big “hole.”

Can I start this up again?

I hope so.  

 

News (quick catch up)

Defended my MFA a few weeks ago (yah)!

Looking desperately for a job.  The head of the English Department at CSU emailed me to ask if I had applied for the internship coordinator position, that my “name had come up a few times” in regard to the position.  So, I applied. 

 

The Good:

• Teaching experience (I have to teach at least 2 classes per year).
• Great work experience.
• Hanging out with people I know and like.

 

The Bad:

• 9 month position (usually contracted for 3 years)
• 17000 for those 9 months.  (This comes out to exactly $10 an hour.  I did the math and counted the weeks.)
• I’d have to find work over the summer.  This summer?  Hardly possible as any teaching job has already been filled for the summer and if I want to teach outside of CSU, I’d have to have my graduate degree in hand.  That will not confer for a while.

 

So, not only am I looking for full-time work, but I’m also looking for a temporary summer position in case the above job comes through (and in case I want to take it).  

 

God, I’m using a LOT of parenthesis. ((()))

I always have….

 

That’s it for now.  We’ll start slow.  

Hi to all my old friends.  

 

Libby!

(Yes, that’s a Fact’s of Life Reference)

So, here’s the dealio with my health.  Had this fever since September.  They’ve ruled out all things infectious (HIV, Malaria, West Nile to name a few fun ones).  They’ve ruled out Lupus.  They’ve ruled out cancer in the pre-screening tests.  Now, we’re onto rheumatology as I have 3 tests that keep coming back with elevated results (all tests that have to do with inflammation).  Where that inflammation is?  Your guess is as good as mine.

They put me on prednisone for 10 days and I felt like a million bucks (aside from the fact that I couldn’t sleep).  Took the tests again.  One came back exactly the same.  Another came back with better numbers.  The other had WORSE numbers.  The doctor looked at me and said, “I have no friggin’ clue.”

After coming off prednisone and feeling achey as can be, he’s thinking maybe rheumatoid arthritis.  So, I get to have a full body (bone and joint) scan to see what lights up–if anything.  If the test comes back positive, they start treatment.  If it comes back negative, I get to cross my skeleton and joints off the list and move on to the next thing.  So, I guess that’s the bad of it all.  It’s been a hard journey, waiting for test results, wondering, “will I be around to see my child grow up?”  Hard stuff and I haven’t really told a lot of people, so it’s been a bit lonely keeping it all in.

Now . . . THE GOOD NEWS.

I was awarded a fellowship through my graduate program.  Myself and one other person (unsure who) were chosen as the top writers in the program.  A huge deal for me.  It’s a nice chunk of money for school, and fellowships look really AWESOME on your resume.   

The thing about this fellowship is that you don’t apply for it, the faculty nominates students and they vote.  It was unanimous for me–meaning every single English department council member voted yes on me, some who have never met me but who have only read my work.  That means a LOT to me.  A friggin’ LOT.  I feel so honored and I get to accept this award at a big dinner.  I’m really excited.

So, I’ll definitely take the good in this case.  The universe can keep the bad for all I care. 

I feel like I have no idea what to write about on here these days.

Life is going well.  This is my last semester doing class-work for the program (next year = thesis work).

I’m trying to get a TA position this summer teaching Western Mythology.  huzzah!  Wouldn’t that rock?

Kid is fine (growing like a weed).

Husband is fine.

Dog/cat (check)

I’m sad about Lost nearing its end.  Mmmmm, Desmond is next week, though! 

Ok, rambly weird post over.

Thanks for readin!

Spring Break List of THINGS TO DO (read: homework)

 

SPEAKOUT

Blog w/Kayla (guest)

Speakout V2.0 website

Email Kay/Kir/V/G about shared prompts & journal submissions

Scan cover images for blog

Americorps Timesheets

CLC Timesheets (and bi-weekly reports)

Research Slam Poetry (how to / Download vids from youtube / burn on DVD)

Write proposal for website for Dr. R / Send to Tobi

 

FORM/TECHNIQUE

Re-read Dybek’s “They Didn’t”

Read Dybek’s essay

Type up Dramatic Monologue exercise and hand-out/notes

Annotation #1: Parrot

Annotation #2: “They Didn’t”

Annotation #3: Noon Wine

Read Porter / Pale Horse

Read Porter / Noon Wine

 

WORKSHOP

Finish story for workshop

Nick’s Story / Read and Respond

Vince’s Story / Read and Respond

Read Stone’s “Helping”

Read Shepherd’s “I Know Myself Real Well”

 

PLAYWRITING

Copy 1 page from play of your choice (make 14 copies)

Write 2^nd synopsis

Read Chapter 7

Write play in scenario form (refer to Trai’s email)

Write one scene from play

 

POETRY

Work on Found Poem

Poetry Reading / Poems

MISC

Work on 2 flash pieces to revise/create for reading

Her mom must work fast.  I got an email this morning saying, “hey, it’s me, I can’t wait to contact you!” through email.

Holy cow.  I’m so happy.